Clarity of Passion

Give to me the clarity of passion
For it is when you come near me that
I am most my true self,
In essence
the girl
Who belongs to others,
Who comes home,
Always a part of something else that defines her
As easily as breathing
Purity
Unburdened by the tethers because it’s a time before I knew tethers existed.
Come near me.
Let me forget for a moment, the world and all I must do.

Give to me the clarity of passion.
Make me angry until there’s no hope
Until I’m
Mentally
Emotionally
Physically
Beat
Until I have had enough
Until you think that spark is done.
You are wrong.
It will change; it will transform
It will ignite again from the tinder, from what you think you’ve weakened
Anger me.
I will set straight what I unwittingly let you change.

Give me the clarity of passion.
It is then I most easily find my true self.
Resilient and clear.
Cold as the rolling waves.
Burning at the core.
I can come to you
Or I can choose to go.

On Spirit

Running by the ocean before the rain, before the sunset. Breath and muscle fueled by will. Fast asleep yet awake too soon. Too soon? If too soon means before the pieces of a heart have mended, then yes. Too soon. For, even the ocean is no match for a will that can run away from it. It's when you trust it, when you're not looking that its waves will finally conquer you, who most resisted. It's a thing that works when you close your golden eyes, when you give in or give up, when you cease to try. Don't you see? It's not your work yet... So I go again.
In the rain /
A dance in the rain /
A dance in the rain.
To heal the spirit first. It is the spirit that will forge the makeshift seams of a heart broken long ago.

Don't look.

She coughed, sat there for a few seconds; then, grabbed her napkin, took out the glob of gunk in her mouth, and looked at it. And you? Sandwich in your mouth, looked over her shoulder and saw it all. I held your hair and rubbed your back as you wretched because some things can't be unseen. You have to learn not to look, I said. I shook my head, Don't look.

Dog Euthanizer

Consider the person who euthanizes healthy dogs because they care. Doesn't he/she end up attached to one? Then will the euthanizer of healthy dogs still euthanize that one? Yes. Frankly, Yes. For, just as the dog has its nature, so too does the euthanizer have his/her nature and further, his/her profession.